Day 1 is simple, this is the start of something new – queue high school musical soundtrack. (oh, I have many more where that came from) the new year is here…
If I’m being honest it’s been a while since my mind decided to play a million and one ideas on repeat and give me the biggest headache of my life…not that this is any different to everyday life.
Now I’m not saying I’m smart, I’m far from it. I’m dyslexic, I have a slight lisp and I pretty much took every low class in school I could, most of the time not by choice. My school was lazy and being dyslexic was an easy way out for them. I was more into sports anyway, so at the time I didn’t care too much.
Now my back story is simple….
My life is simple. I have a simple job. I have a simple house. I have a simple car (well I have a 7-seater – no family – just a bunch of friends without licenses that I love to drive around everywhere) I would love to say that my life is full of adventure, I guess to a certain degree it is, but it’s never in the way that you hope. I have a great group of friends, I do everything with them. Co-dependent is a word that is thrown around by those who don’t know us- now that’s a bit worrying- but any-who. My group is made of three single guys, one single girl (that’s me!) and one amazing couple – I guess you could say we rely on one other. In my mind, it’s in a healthy way…but I guess that’s to be decided…
I hate the whole girls and guys can’t be friend’s thing, that is seriously outdated and small-minded thinking…the reason I say this, I get it all the time ‘are you guys dating?’ ‘you two would be perfect for each other?’ It, drives, me CRAZY! I love these gorgeous people, but I’ve done my whole, 10-days, three months rule (…more of that later) but these amazing people are just not it, they are to stay as my over protective, sometime over the top friends.
Well, now I’m 20-something, (more towards the big 3-0 but sshh), I’m back at my parents’ house after a boring 4-year relationship followed by a cheating dick of a 2-year relationship, followed then by the need to move into a female friend’s house, being both recently single and a need to party but you know…fail, fail, big fat fail, and now I’m trying to live day by day.
So, this brings me to today, I have a few friends that blog (links to follow shortly) – and after talking about my online…private…blogs they told me to just give it ago and keep it anonymous – why not?
So, they give me a million and one reasons to do one – then I give myself a million and one reasons not to. It has taken me many years, and many burnt journals, notes, memory sticks and random walls to finally come to the conclusion of…….fuck it!
Simply – why the fuck not….
So, will my blogs change your life…probably not…
Will I care…nope
….am I going to do it anyway – hell yeah! – because I have a brain that works a million miles a minute, I suffer from depression and anxiety in the form of panic attacks and overthinking, and apparently this is the thing to do…or so I’ve been told, it can help others, right?
Now, here’s to some other simples in life: Fuck the hate. Small minded people feel the need for their voices to be raised higher above the rest. So right now, for the year that is ahead, I want you to ignore the hate – do not respond, talk as if it is not there, talk above it, but most importantly do not let it win!
Peace, Love and Laughter…