Dear Old Friend

Summer A Rainy Day Pink Flower Lotus Gwangokji

We were once close so close we were mistaken as a couple. We once shared a life, a house, a group of friends, but now.

Now apparently, I turned everyone against you, apparently, I’m the one going around telling everyone, when it was him. The friend of your boyfriend, the one you were also with. He’s telling all his friends, before I left, before I knew. He even lied to me and said he told no one. I just wanted to stay out of it. He’s the one telling, and they didn’t like it. They don’t like the way you are…but it’s my fault…how? You used to be one of the good ones, the one I trusted, or so I thought…it’s sad.

Now my whole office is against me, because you want them all to believe the lies. You’re trying to beat me, you’re trying to coat the truth with your words, to hide your guilt and make me out to be the liar. It’s funny because my integrity hasn’t changed. I haven’t changed, you have and just for the fact you’re doing this. You wouldn’t have done this before. Our friendship was built on the complete opposite.

We used to laugh at girls acting the way you do now

All I want to do is get on with my job. I don’t want to feel the panic, I don’t want to care. I don’t want to care about you anymore. Deep down I think I knew I couldn’t trust you because I never told you my deepest secrets. The ones that make me who I am. I’ve realised who my true friends are. They were there the whole time. Warning me against you..

So, I write this letter to thank you. Thank you for breaking my heart. Thank you for destroying my trust and allowing myself to build safeguards to protect myself and most of all, thank you for showing me your true colours. I wouldn’t have the amazing life I have now if it wasn’t for you, because I wouldn’t have known what to appreciate

Thank you and I do forgive you, but I will never trust or care for you again… 

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