I am…

The Clouds Storm Nature Blue Sky

…high pitched internal scream, which goes on for about 3 solid minutes…

The biggest fact about myself is I need to stop being so defensive! I need to stay calm and not let things and people piss me off…

I need to focus my energy into getting out of my current work place! It is dragging me under. The only thing keeping me going there every day is my actual friends that work there with me! I need to remember even if I leave that god-awful place they’ll still be a part of my life…hey maybe it will even be healthier for us. To see each other less…yeah?

I know I need to reprogram myself. I need to stop thinking I can’t do something, I need to see that my life can be improved if I just get off my arse and do something about it. I need to stop making excuses, I need to stop blaming others for my down falls. The only reason I am where I am today is because of me, and I need to have the balls to change it…I need to remember…

I am fucking amazing!

I am fucking wonderful…

I am smart…

I am beautiful…

I am brave…

I am the better person, the bigger person.

I can do anything I want to do if I put my mind to it.

I need to stop being scared, worried and unsure.

I just need to pick my shit up and get it done. I need to see what I really want to do, not what I think I can do and just fucking do it!

Small minded people are always going to be a part of your life, this is a fact everyone needs to be prepared for. Now I’m not just talking about the big open-minded topics at this current moment, I’m talking about the small ones, like pathetic childlike gossip that still goes around a work place. I need to accept this fact and realise that I don’t want to be in a place like that anymore.

I want to enjoy going to work again, I want to enjoy what I do… So I need to get up, move my arse and find a place with a little more room than an office environment. I want something where I can meet new people every day with a different location and atmosphere.

I’m not stupid, every workplace is going to have its workplace drama, but I NEED something new…

Peace out….

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